Fancy Free!!
The much awaited Fancy Free MV from our very own Singapore starlet SUN! 
Reminds me of one of my favourite singers, Ayumi Hamasaki! Absolute Coolness! Look out for the launch of Sun’s album – Cause A Ruckus!!
Cool Parents
The following is a list of attributes which I thought a cool parent has to possess:
- Tech savvy
- Drives a luxury car
- Fashion forward
- Globe trotter
- Eloquent
- Sophisticated
- Rich
That was when I was younger. However, now, I think my parents are way cooler. Because:
- My mum cooks excellent Chinese food. 80% of friends that have eaten at my place comments that my mummy’s a great cook, 20% are just shy I bet. haha…
- My dad speaks in fluent Malay, Hokkien, Hainanese, Cantonese, Hakka, Teochew, Mandarin and other dialects which I do not know of.
- My mum has been a full-time housewife for 23 years and she’s not complaining about it!
- My dad has not taken medical leave from work for 35 years working in his company! Maybe a couple of times. He never grumbles about working over-time too.
- My dad keeps 6 birds and 3 tanks of fishes in our 5-room flat.
- My daddy can shoot a lizard dead using a rubber band, and he only needs one shot. He does that to flies too.
- My mum is not afraid of insects and pests either.
- My parents were both athletes back in their school days, they were track & field champs! And my dad was a boxer!
- My mum is skilled in fixing zippers!! A skill few people possess.
- My mum has an industrial sewing machine at home!!! the fierce and ferocious sort.
- My siblings and I have good genes: My parents look like they’re in their 40s when actually they’re nearing their 60s!
- And most importantly, even though we weren’t rich, my parents did their best to provide the best for us. They sent my sister and I to Faith Methodist Kindergarten so that we could learn English, even though it was very very costly to them then.
When I was young, I used to be embarrassed about my family background. Afterall, my parents aren’t English speaking, we don’t have a car, never been overseas until I was 12, and we lived in a 3-room flat. Going to school, it seemed like all my peers were living in comfort and luxury or at least have been to Malaysia and I was the poor Chinese speaking girl who had to lie about going to Kualar Lumpur.
However, going to church made me realise that God doesn’t look at us outwardly, He looks at our hearts’ intents. Even though my parents are non-believers, God, through His common grace, has blessed me with wonderful parents who taught the children diligence, strong family values and the importance of kinship and honor.
I used to wonder why couldn’t I have been born into a rich family with parents who would teach me law and business and investment… That might have given me an edge growing up in such a competitive environment. But being able to witness how my dad, through sheer hard work and faithfulness to his job of 35 years, was able to earn a living sufficient for us to live comfortably now in a 5-room flat enjoying whatever technology we need, paying off our University education, going out for weekly meals… And my mum, cooking washing and cleaning all day… I can’t help but to be grateful.
Simplicity has its beauty. I’m proud of my heritage and real happy to be blessed with the best parents on planet earth!
Because of…
说实在，若这一生中没有遇上耶稣，至今我因该仍是一条孤僻虫。若不是耶稣，我根本没有必要和别人建立关系。若不是耶稣，我也没必要每个星期都给查经班。若不是耶稣，我也没必要在乎自己的品行。若不是耶稣，我也没必要每天上上下下给家教。若不是耶稣，我大概也没有必要和家人建立好关系、没必要对别人好、没必要开心、没必要微笑、没必要带领小组、没必要对生命充满期望… … 这一切的一切，都是因为一位救主和他无私的大爱。如果我还是无动于衷，那我将会是世界上最大的傻瓜。
谢谢你啦，阿爸天父，才会有今天的王洁云。愿这一生能成为你动工的器皿。
I Need New Clothes!
Okay! I’m gonna blog in English today, heh…
Lying on my parent’s bed using my laptop now… I like to lie on their bed when I’m unwell… It’s huge and spacious and its made of organic material, so therefore I think the extra comfort… Having a cold now… coughing too… Had to take MC from class this morning and cancel tuition… I feel sad cuz it’s my favourite module this sem… and my student’s having his prelim oral exam on monday… I really don’t like to be sick, so unfruitful… I need to be well by evening to go for FOP!
Dozing off now… pardon me if I’m incoherent… Was trying to do some online shopping before this, but decided to save some money… the items i like will add up to about $70… so better not la… But seriously, I need new clothes… These are the items which I wanted to buy… went as far as filling up the form actually… hence the “cut & paste” item names below… I’m UK size 10, if anybody wants to bless… haha…
TSR05 BASIC TWIST BACK TANK WHITE
TSR06 THE PERFECT BANDAGE HIGH WAISTED SKIRT
TSR06 READY SET GLO SET TANK
Oh man… I can’t withstand the drowsiness anymore… falling asleep as I type… Get well soon… I’ve got so much to do… Studies, Vocals, Tuition, Cell…
Moral of the story: Never fast after taking so much Durians… I should have known my body well enough… sigh!
世界上最遥远的距离 — 泰戈尔 (Rabindranath Tagore)
梁静茹 《没有如果》里的一句词是从泰戈尔《世界上最遥远的距离》这首诗里面提取出来的。这首诗对爱情和距离的定义是我本身非常欣赏的，所以要非常谢谢小莺告诉我原创者是谁！！Excited! 
《世界上最遥远的距离》 泰戈尔
世界上最遥远的距离，不是生与死
而是我就站在你的面前，你却不知道我爱你
世界上最遥远的距离，不是我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起
世界上最遥远的距离，不是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念，却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
世界上最遥远的距离，不是明明无法抵挡这股想念，却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠。
心境旅程
今天听到了几首非常美妙的歌，它们仿佛都是上帝借用的工具，在我最不知情、毫无预料的时候，对我说话，打动了我的心。上帝啊，你真是有一套！
唉！生命中有太多的遗憾，太多的应该和不应该… … 想着想着就会觉得时间好像过于限制我们。若它允许，我肯定会回到从前，把一切都改写，让历史变得更完美一些… … 杂志上总会有采访问道：“若你能回到过去，你会更改什么吗？”… … 那些回答“什么也不更改”的人不是非常知足，生活过得太好对别人的痛苦毫无了解，不然就是在撒谎。没有遗憾好像是个不可能的境界，但在神里面，遗憾的刺痛会渐渐被淡化。不是一种假象或因为时间而消失的忘记，而是一种真实，不带怨恨的释放。就算还记忆犹新，遗憾的刺痛因为神的爱已经不再对我的心造成伤害… … 成熟是经历激烈的痛与悲伤所磨练出来的成果。
我最大的遗憾就是没有好好珍惜。下面两首歌的每一句词似乎表达了我的心声。以下是洁云的心境旅途，在阅读的你可以以不同角度尝试了解我的心情起伏。真希望能够有音乐，效果会好一些。哈哈！不论如何，起飞吧！
没有如果 – 梁静茹
词/曲：严爵
如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若”如果”拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手
有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前你却不知道我爱你
我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天
如果如果没有如果
如果如果最后变成路过我也不能接受
错过错过不想错过
错过错过我比你更难过我不会一错再错
改变 – 罗文裕 Wing
词/曲：罗文裕
你是否觉得 有时候孤单的很寂寞
想哭的时候 没有肩膀可以停留
在地球某个角落 有我想念你的喜怒哀乐
每个时刻 我都为你祈祷着
希望的白鸽 会在你需要的时候降落
爱可以将界改变 让伤心换一张笑脸
苦涩变成了甘甜 幸福开始蔓延
真心付出的很完美 等待也是一种喜悦
荒漠开玫瑰 爱让奇迹出现
你的笑是我最美的纪念
有些东西就是英文永远也表达不出来的，但是洁云已经好久没有以中文写作了，大脑好像还处在英文写作的状态，许多用词也好像不是很恰当，希望大家多多包含。嗯，一定要努力把我的中文搞好！再接再厉！
现在已经是凌晨3点30分了，开始有一些睡意了… … 想表达的东西瞬间在我脑海里变得模糊、没有结构… … 所以，必须停‘笔’，下次心血来潮时再尝试以中文写稿，这一次有点太逊色了！Good night world… yAwn!
Accepting Grace
I’m pondering aloud now. Here goes.
When the smart and intellectual think that getting ‘A’s mean that they have trusted God throughout their exams… were they really trusting God…? They can already achieve that by their own strengths… So does it really take trust in God for them to achieve that kind of results…? I won’t say that takes trust, but they must be thankful to God nonetheless, for that kind of talent everybody would love to have, me included.
How about when students start thinking that only when they get straight ‘A’s does that mean that God is blessing them… are they really trusting God…? What if the straight ‘A’s never came… are they going to lose faith and become disheartened…? This thought is a dangerous one… It limits what God can do through a person’s life… It limits God to just the dimension of the person’s academic progress… Or worse, limit God to a piece of result slip.
How about when one shoulders everything on oneself to the point that s/he gets immobilised by stress… was that person really trusting God…?
Trust is an amazing word… It can only happen if 1) It’s beyond our natural capabilities, 2) We’re willing to allow God to do things His way, 3) We’re willing to let go and let God.
I’m not saying that God doesn’t want us to work hard and score our ‘A’s… I’m just thinking… Those times when I subjected myself to all the stress of doing well, and I started taking things into my own hands, forgeting to slow down to hear from God, but instead push myself to finish what I thought needed to be done… Was I really trusting God in those times…? The error wasn’t in working hard… the error was in my failure to let God take over. I was often too anxious.
Something a loved one said left me pondering for days… When we shoulder everything on ourselves, try to do things our way and forget/refuse to let God in, that is pride… His yoke is easy, His burden is light… Imagine the picture of a girl, shouldering huge burdens on her shoulders, bent forward, inching forward slowly, and Jesus patiently walking beside her, offering to help carry her load, but she says seemingly politely, “It’s Ok Jesus, I can do this.” I didn’t realise that was what I did when I was so consumed trying to finish studying for last semester’s exams… I thought I was doing my best, trying to live out the ‘excellent spirit’. Yet in the end, I got so stressed out and anxious that I would breakdown and cry almost every single day. I need to learn to withdraw, take a step back, and let God come into my situation. When He comes, He comes with peace, strategies, ideas, focus, strength, capacity, power, wisdom, vision… there’s an ease. That is the grace of God – an empowerment to overcome, an empowerment to live out His will.
Pride is not just when we deliberately leave God out of our lives, but it’s also when we find it hard to let God into our situation…
I love the lyrics that go “No longer will I forfeit grace, I’ll follow You and live by faith”. After I thought about all the above, this line just became so much more meaningful to me. All too often, I forfeited the grace of God and took things into my own hands. Inevitably, I ended up tired, burnt out. Trusting God is living by faith. Living by faith requires us to accept grace. When we’re too proud, wanting things to be done our way, too anxious to let God in… Grace cannot come in… When grace can’t come in, that’s when things start to fall apart. We build and we build and we build, only to realise in the end that this was not the tower God had meant for us to build… That would just be tragic!
I don’t ever want my efforts to be wasted. That’s why we need to keep praying. I want my time, from now on, to be spent on building the tower God wants me to build. I don’t want to build any other towers in this lifetime, just one tower for God, a couple more if that’s what God wants. haha… Anyway, you get my point No longer will I forfeit grace, I’ll follow Christ and live by faith. Amen!
石欣卉 – 一人留
The result of not being able to come online often, much less blog! haha… So yup, here’s my current favourite song. Enjoy!
没时间上网的结果…… 哈哈。只能在blog上面介绍一些好歌啰！目前的最爱！Enjoy!
刘力扬 – 寂寞光年
《双子星》已经进入尾声，相信会悲剧收场。So sad! Anyway, 我非常喜欢这部戏的主题曲！觉得很有味道，词也非常有feel，我上瘾了！！哈哈！得去找一找词是谁写的，I like
寂寞光年 – 刘力扬
是谁从我天空摘走了星星 一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己判刑 忘了我也值得被关心
一双手一个梦一路上不断的俯冲 痛到忘了要怎么喊痛
漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过 我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔 融化这颗坚强的泡沫
漫长的等候让人特别失落 锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手 陪着我期待消失的彩虹
是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴 天灰了，快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里 忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空 精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手 微不足道却那么重
漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没 整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走 带我离开空洞的星球
还有什么值得追求 还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由
